i always believed that one cannot give what he does not have. i told myself that i can only give love that amounts to whatever love i am given. and so it went like that for a very long time. whatever love i had ever since i came into the world, i gave it all to someone... overflowing or not, i believed it was all i had. and when he left me, well, you could say, i lost my sanity for a moment there.
and to anyone that followed, i gave pieces of whatever i had left and whatever i've been offered each single day. but did i, really? because now that i think about it, i think i gave more.
how would that be possible? one cannot offer more of something he does not have. where did i get all that love? and BANG, it hit me... i forgot my God's love for me.
after careful thought and a lot of sorrys in between, i now say love is different. because i can always make more when i need it. i now remember that i have been loved immeasurably, unendingly, and a lot lot more than i could imagine.
love is infinite. love is infinite. love is infinite.
i cannot measure the amount of it i give or the amount of it i am given. and i was wrong to ever think of it that way. i can never measure God's love... and i will never be able to compare to how much of it He gives me. and whatever love i gave was only a miniscule part of all that. and i laugh at myself for believing i had nothing left. i've forgotten that that would never happen.
hihihihihi. weeeeeeeeeee and u wonder why i'm writing this. hmmmmm... this is for everyone. so they can understand why it is as it is so. ^^
i am loved infinitely... and that is more than enough to see myself through.
for eusie (i remembered you when i wrote down the last sentence... kalit lang. i dunno why.) i hope i got to tell you the lines i wrote in bold. i was never able to. and i would never know if it would be able to change anything at all. actually i hope i did a lot lot more even. but still, wherever you are now, i hope you know. and i hope you're finally better. my prayers tonight are for you.
