"i have no time to change", i said today. but the world asks me to. and i tell it, "i have no time to change."
i'm plotting down a schedule good enough for me. i think if i manage it, i'll be fine. but then.... but then.... (this is for you, if you know who you are.), i'd probably have no time for you. i am scared. i'm scared of all the things i need to do. and i might fail... i do not want to try and fail. i don't think my heart can take it.
and i hope you understand. give me a few years for this, and then maybe i can start thinking about us. it's not yet time anyway. i've been from major breakups lately. and maybe, maybe, changing this lifestyle would help me heal and be ready for you... if you could wait that long. we can stay the way we are for the mean time. and please don't ask me to rush.
i hope you can hold it in for the moment. i just have no time.
