i have listened to your story for the past month now. and i have realized that although you may listen to what i have kept telling you, i know you'd never understand it. because you are too blinded by this so-called love.
most of what i'm going to write here, i write for you. so that you'll remember that i was not one of the friends who kept you from your most probable happy ending..
you are torn... having this very difficult decision to make, to run after her after all she had done, to fall prey to her every whim after she had hurt you so badly, after she had left you at the time you had needed her most. and you ask for advice from someone like me. i will never tell you what to do dong... it's a decision you'd have to make on your own. if it makes you happy, then what can we all do? what can we say to make it worse or make it better?
fate, after all, is building a bridge to the one you love. that's what i got from one movie i really liked. go go go. build your bridge and run after her if you want to. i just want to make sure that if ever that bridge breaks while you are crossing it, you don't lose yourself. if you get her back, do you expect things to return back to the way they were? i hope they really do dong. but if they don't, then what do you do? will you be able to stand and fight for it anyhow? if you get there and it turns out ugly, will you be able to live with yourself on your way back? will you be able to live with that for the rest of your life?
if i was the one in your place, i would say yes i'd go and try. but i am not you. it's either you go or you don't go. if you don't, then you probably won't get that happy ending with her. and you will never know how it will turn out. but if you do, just promise me you'll know that it gets better. that life is better than all that. it is never wrong to love too much, at least that's what i believe so. but just make sure you leave a little of that love for yourself. so you can get up and walk again when the one you love lets you down.
i do not think the things i say really matter.. but i say it with all my wisdom in the years i've lived. i say that with all my belief in love. i say that with all my hope for what's ahead. and i say that with all my love for ronie.
i hope things turn out fine. and whatever your decision may be, i hope you'll be happy.
