it was the greatest love i know of. it was filled with countless sacrifices and numerous attempts of sanctifying vows nobody heard. it was filled with madness and bliss. it was imperfect but it was pure. it was bitter, and it was very sweet. it was all i had.
and now the world is different. like those clouds that change shape with every little gust of wind. my love had changed. and i am shaken off like dust on his feet. i am shattered. and my heart bleeds. like the world, he had changed into someone less better. and i disappoint myself more by believing still, by keeping true to the promises i gave a long time ago.
maybe hurting myself a lil bit more might bring myself some justice. maybe through all this, no matter how painful it is, i can say that what we had was unlike anything else. that it was special. that it was different from all the other love stories in the world. that it's worth it all.. maybe through this, our love might prove itself real.
because now, i think it must have only been a dream.
something i got out of a book i read.. i forget a lot, you see. maybe i forgot i made it all up. maybe he was never there. maybe he never really loved me. maybe that love was never real. and it is time i woke up.
maybe when i open my eyes and wake up from this nightmare, i might forget this hurt i feel right here. i had loved him with everything i am.. but the love we had wasn't as special as i thought it was. he threw it away so easily after all. and that's what hurts the most because it was all i had. it was all i knew. and no matter what, he shouldn't have called and treated me that way. he is not any better than me. and i am not as low as he thinks. i deserve better than all that.
i want to forget now. make me forget now. somebody tell me that it was all a dream. and blow all the pain away until nothing is left..
maybe through all this, no matter how painful it is, i can say that what we had was unlike anything else. that it was special. that it was different from all the other love stories in the world. that it's worth it all.. maybe through this, our love might prove itself real.
