we're going to leave for hongkong on the 6th and we won't be passing through manila. and then we go straight to Japan. we're gonna pass through the same route on the way home, too.
i am upset.
yep, i had, in truth, been looking forward to seeing ronie again... to see him smile at me again... to just brush my hand over his face like i used to... to look at the eyes that were once so full of love for me.
i had imagined it would go like this -- i'd go to makati, hand over his clearances (an errand i just ran for him) from his previous employers. and if we feel okay, we'd go somewhere nice to watch the stars. if we don't (which is most probable since he's got work the next day), i'd hug him, run my hand over his face, say "i love you" the way i used to, and then turn to go.
i guess i'd have to wait longer to see ronie again...
maybe our paths would cross again someday.... maybe not. i don't really know.
i just miss him so much.
"I am a dreamer and when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the mother of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet." --from Goodbye My Lover (James Blunt)
