a new name. a new beginning. always a happy ending.
i have a new name..
Kimberly N. Villaver-Fajardo
it sounds just about right. :P
u moved me.Friday, February 26, 2010
my ison
last year, i wrote this for you.
this year, i am reposting it just before our wedding.
this is for you my sweet. so that you will remember why you are the one... the one i will be spending the rest of my life with. why it can't be anyone else. heaven brought you to me, you know that? and i know no one else in the world can love me as much as you do. thank you. thank you. thank you for making all my dreams come true...
:) i love you.
This is a narration of the love I have for you. It would never be complete I know, for words can never describe this love. But I would like to tell you all the reasons why, in this world of worlds, I would rather not be anywhere else than here with you. And why, months from now, it is for you I will give my vow of eternal love, before man, and before God.
This is so you would never forget even through all the difficult days I might have to put you through... This is so you will always know that whatever happens, you are the only one in the world for me and that I love you so. I bet this is going to be long. You know how talkative I can get. :) I’ll just add more if I don’t get to finish it today.
Hmmm…
You often wonder exactly when I fell in love with you. I cannot quite remember either. It happened like springtime. Like movie springtime, you suddenly find all the flowers in bloom, after long days of winter. It had been a difficult three years before that day, and then for the first time, after a long time, I smiled for real. Because I woke up that morning and came to the realization that finally, I found the man I was going to marry.
I remember it was after that advice outside global.. that encounter with the old woman.. the talks until the wee hours of the morning.. the daily lunches and dinners.. it was after being with you for many months and finding out who you really are.
I did struggle days before that, because I was treading a difficult line. I had to choose whether it was wrong or right. But I fell in love with you anyway, because you are who you are. And after years of searching for you and having found you at last, I was willing to give up everything else. I hope everyone else would understand why I chose you... why I chose this.
You are more important than anything else I have in this world.
You say you are the luckiest in the world to have me. When in truth, I am the lucky one. Because of all the people in the world, it is I you had chosen to love the way you do.
I cry like hell for almost everything in the world. And you wipe away my tears day after day. Without meaning to, I get hurt for even the simplest of gestures, the smallest of words, the tiniest details, and regardless of whether I hide it or not, you always know what to do. And even when there are days I would think you could not put up with it anymore, you always come back and love me anyway, and you blow all the pain away.
You have been very good to me. You do all the little things for me. You serve me like I am your princess. You take care of me like I am a fragile little child. And you reprimand me when I do wrong. You stare at me lovingly, even when I look my worst, and you find me beautiful still. You cuddle with me. And you never forget to tell me just how much you love me. You never fail to kiss me on the forehead because you know I like it. You let me disturb you even when you’re busy just because I wanted you to notice me. You tease me rotten, until I punch you and cry, and then you always find a way to make it better.
You let me take care of you the best way I could, even when it really does not matter at all. You allow me to clip your nails coz you know I’ve never clipped mine (my nails are not growing anymore). You let me comb your hair. You let me massage you even when you know I give the worse massages in the world. You let me clean up even if you know I’m the worst housekeeper since clumsy-me will just make an awful lot of mess, and you forgive me anyway.
You let me tutor you because you know I want to do so. And you have intellectual conversations with me, sometimes it ends badly, but you always find ways to make me cool down after I argue too much about our points of view. You understand my immaturity. And you are patient with my laziness.
You have all those surprises for me, gifts that for some people would not mean much, but you know they mean a lot to me. You listen to me talk about all sorts of things; sometimes even for hours (I must imagine how difficult it’s been). You respect me and believe in me. You know how low my self-esteem is, but you have confidence in me.
You try so hard to make me proud of you. It’s as if you do not know that I already am... that no failing grade, no forgotten promise, no bad fight, or anything else is going to change that. You are the best friend (you can ask every single friend you know), the understanding brother (you always are the unwearied one), the obedient son (I know how much you admire and respect your father and your mother), the trusting soul (I know how much you love God), the faithful husband (I know you are), and the loving father (our future children would not find a better one than you).
And you are proud of me. In spite of everything I had gone through in life, and all the things I have done. I have never really been as proud of myself as I am with you.
I don’t think I can fit it all here. I just wanted to tell you about all the things you do for me you see. And I kinda’ got carried away. :)
But you know what my best memories of you are?
It’s during the times when I wake up late. It’s when I sleep in and wake up to your kisses and hugs, and then you still let me go back to sleep, then you do it all again a little later because you miss me, even when I’m only a door away.
It’s during my sleepovers, when in the middle of the night, you suddenly wake from your sleep to hug me tight and kiss me and a few seconds later, you snore your heart out.
It’s during those moments when you talk about the family we would have someday, and how, with all sincerity, you tell me you would give me all that.
And I can’t help but cry and wonder how in the world I deserved you.
You are my proof of God’s infinite love for me. And the family we will be creating will be a witness to that. I love you my Ison. Nothing is ever going to change that. I love you more than you would ever know, and much much more than I could ever show.
And if somebody asked about life before I even met you, I would not be able to remember. Everything that happened in the past was just part of me getting ready so I could love you the way I know how to love you now. Life for me began when you arrived. The life I always wanted to have. Sure, I have dreamt it chronologically different, but now that I’m here, I would not wish for it any other way. I’m just happy.
There are still a few things we have to fix though. But it’s going to be okay. You always assure me that as long as we’re together, we’re going to be just fine. And I believe you with all my heart and soul. In three years, we’ll have good jobs (I hope you get the one you’re going to be really happy in :)), a good house (of course hihihihi), and the most loving child (maybe more hihihihi). And we’ll let the years roll by.
And then we can make the situation you talked to me about come true, about us getting old together, going to do grocery together still even during that age, hearing mass together, and then calling each other the sweetest names as if we were still 16.
You are the sweetest person in the world, you know that? And I am the only one you show that to. :) Am I not blessed?
I hope whatever the world throws at us, we’ll remain forever true like we vowed to be. I will pray every day for the strength and the wisdom for that.
You are my angel, the touch of heaven in my life. I love you my sweet.
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July 6, 2023
hello ison.
i know the ison you are now probably won't believe me after everything i have done to you. but if one day, if my ison would one of these days, suddenly come back to check in and remember us, i'd like for him to read my message here:our 10th anniversary
u moved me.Tuesday, February 23, 2010
cabal wedding
we won the february event in cabal.
can you believe that? hmmm ison was always confident we would win (palabi lang jud sya kabilib nako hahahah). and we did. isn't that great? not only are we getting married, our cabal characters are getting married too.
ahahahah. isn't that cute? although there has been a change to our civil wedding schedule, (instead of this saturday, it will be on february 26, next friday), it's no biggie. :) ison's parents are coming to cebu to attend the wedding, so next week is definitely better for them.
i brought my lil angel castielle a nice dress to wear on that day. so we both can look nice together. :) i hope we can get a family picture then. :) that would be soooo great.
i will be going to the city tomorrow.. guess why? ison says we're going to login for the cabal wedding in ayala. that way, before and after the wedding, we can go on our date. and the cabal wedding will be part of it. :)
isn't my ison the greatest? hihihhihih heaven brought him to me. he is everything i prayed for. except of course wala ko gaexpect nga grabe (as in GRABE to the max, dili nya maantos nga dili manungog... mura na syag mabuang nga dili kapanungog nako in one day.) kasungogan akong ma-bana... but sige nalang... iya man dayun bawion kung saputon nako.. wala pa jud ko maanad. but i'm forgiving. :P he's really sweet when he isn't teasing me. so okies nalang. hahahaha
this is a picture of our wedding rings. :) his name is engraved on mine. and my name, kimberley (give chance kay mao man jud ang akoang spelling), is engraved on his. :)
since ako man ang gasuwat sa story, mao lang na akong wedding gift nimo baby ha? hahahaha we won after all. so bongga. :P see you tomorrow my sweet2.. mmmwwwaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
re-posting what CM Charms had posted. i like this a lot. :)
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine
To see jewelry in your dream, signifies your own sense of self worth and personal value. It is also symbolic of knowledge, identity, or whatever qualities you hold precious in your life. They highlight the importance of spirituality and psychological riches. A particular piece of jewelry that you own, may symbolize aspects of a waking relationship.
Pearl
To see pearls in your dream, symbolizes the human soul, inner beauty, purity and chastity. Alternatively, it represents tears and sadness.
To see a lover in your dream, symbolizes acceptance, self-worth, and acknowledgement of your true inner value. It may also indicate integration of masculine and feminine traits into yourself. You are feeling complete or whole. Your dream lover may also be someone who is your ideal. The dream could be compensatory for a unsatisfactory or unfulfilling relationship in your real life.
To dream of an old or former lover, signifies unfinished/unresolved issues related to that specific relationship. Your current relationship may be awakening some of those same issues.
To see friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge these rejected aspects of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.
u moved me.Monday, February 08, 2010
whispers
There is a pleasure sure in being mad
which none but madmen know
Don't wish. Don't start. Wishing only wounds the heart. -Wicked
