i know i've finished my undergraduate degree and this is a profession i can't really run from anymore. i'm doing my masters now.
don't get me wrong. i don't hate the course i chose. and i know i'm doing just okay.
but for some reason, i think i made the wrong choice.
should have been doing math and getting better at it. should have been building buildings and bridges. should have been better at what i'm supposed to do.
so there.
now, a part of me
says i'd rather be a housewife
than finish my graduate degree and be a computer engineer
for the rest of my life.
sorry brain. i've always been just too scared to choose another profession and not find friends there.
u moved me.Thursday, January 21, 2010
You're my life's miracle Ison nako :)
Hmmm… Can’t you tell I’m excited? It’s going to be in a few weeks. We have a lot of documents to process and I just can’t wait. I hate the long lines, but we have to make it happen soon. And I’m jumping-out-of-my-wits-excited. I want all the papers ready already! Hahahahah. And I wonder what it will be like to wear my wedding ring. Hihiihihh… Bobot (Amo ning joke ni Ison ^^). LOL. What will we have it engraved with? For Always. Forever. For All Eternity. You Bring Out The Best In Me. I can’t decide. =) Ison and Kim. Masakto kaha tanan?
Ison says it would have been better if it was a church wedding, but since that isn’t allowed yet, we’ll be doing the civil wedding first.
But you know what? It really doesn’t matter how it’s done. As long as it’s with him. I can’t imagine a different life with someone else. The church wedding will come later pa since I am going to have to change my religion first. I probably will try and start next month. How do I feel about it? Hmmm as of the moment, yes, it does hurt a bit because I will be leaving the religion I grew up in. But Ison wants us in the same church, so we won’t argue too much over our faith (like we almost did yesterday AGAIN).
And it’s okay. I’m already rational and spiritual enough to believe that God brought me to this. Perhaps this is where I’m supposed to be. (Para akong anak dili mapareha nako kabadlungon? Bwahhahahaha…) Bitaw oie, I’m going to do it for my Ison and our Castielle. This is for the family we will be building together. So no worries. ^^,)
Over a year ago, I wrote an entry in this blog and said I was wishful thinking, but I think I found the man I am going to marry. If you knew Ison for who he really is, then you would know just like how I did that day (As if ni POOF! lang? =P). You would know there is no one else for me but him. =) No one else could bring out the best in me but my Ison.
I miss him so much already. I guess that’s why I’m writing this. I spent the day with him yesterday running all around the city. City Health, NSO, Capitol, Pag-Ibig, blahblah… =) Kapoi kaayu but okay lang kuyog man mi. Hihihihi. He’s going to visit us here sa Minglanilla tomorrow. I can’t wait to see him again. =)
I hope you’re happy for me. This is going to be the start of something big in my life. And the immature me will be going through a major phase.. But I know everything’s going to be alright because Ison will be there holding my hand. He loves me. And I love him.
Well, bantayan sa nako si Eeyel. Here are some of my favorite love song lines. (Kay nagpatukar ko ron, and I only miss Ison even more ihihihihih)
----------------------------------------------- Suddenly our destiny has started to unfold When you’re next to me I can see the greatest story love has ever told Now my life is blessed with the love of an angel, how can it be true? Somebody to keep the dream alive, the dream I found in you I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me But when we touch, I realize That I found my place in heaven by your side ----------------------------------------------- Let the world stop turning, let the sun stop burning Let them tell me love’s not worth going through If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart The only dream that mattered had come true Cause in this life, I was loved by you ----------------------------------------------- Now anyone who's felt the touch of heaven in their lives Will know the way I'm feeling, looking in my baby's eyes That's why I can't bear to be too far away I know that God must love me cause He sent you to me ----------------------------------------------- When I look into your eyes I can see how much I love you and it makes me realize When I look into your eyes We will always be together, and our love will never die When I look into your eyes I see all my dreams come true when I look into your eyes -----------------------------------------------
And lastly, akong isulat ang tibuok namo wedding song. Of course, sa church wedding na ni someday. =) ----------------------------------------------- Tell me can you feel my heart beat Tell me as i kneel down at your feet I knew there would come a time When these two hearts would entwine Just put your hand in mine Forever
For so long I have been an island When no one could ever reach the shores And we've got a whole lifetime to share And I'll always be there, darling this i swear
So please believe me for these words I say are true And don't deny me a lifetime loving you If you ask will I be true Do I give my all to you? Then I will say I do
I'm ready to begin this journey Well I'm with you with every step you take And we've got a whole lifetime to share And I'll always be there Darling this I swear
So please believe me for these words I say are true And don't deny me a lifetime loving you If you ask will I be true Do I give my all to you? Then I will say I do
So come on just take my hand oh come on Let’s make a stand for our love I know this is so hard to believe So please So please believe me for these words I say are true And don't deny me a lifetime loving you And if you ask will I be true And do I give my all to you?
If you ask if I’ll be true Do I give my all to you? Then I will say I do
