I did not have my happy ending. I guess that was the whole point. Because really, when will I decide to call my life over unless it has? Maybe one day, in a distant future when every bit of my skin has wrinkled up, if I get the chance, I'd write here again to tell you if a dreamer like me really did find the happy ending I was looking for.
A lot has happened since my last post. I gave birth to another beautiful baby girl, Anna Cathaleia, and as of the moment, I'm struggling with being the mother of a newborn all over again. Castielle Alana is growing up fast... and life, though bearable, is difficult as it should be. My daughters make living seem all so worthwhile, however, and I thank God for that everyday.
I do have a different job for the past two years now and I'm happy with it so far. I've made terrible mistakes in the past and everyday I struggle to be better than who I was, but as you may already know, it definitely isn't easy.
I am abandoning this blog now. Although it had its moments of happiness, it mostly contains painful memories and too much of me being angry and bitter. :)
So goodbye.
u moved me.Friday, March 21, 2014
whispers
There is a pleasure sure in being mad
which none but madmen know
Don't wish. Don't start. Wishing only wounds the heart. -Wicked
