i took an early breakfast with 5 other global boys at silogan around 5:30 this morning. and we started talking about how global started out. And later on, i don't really know how it got there, but it got to the point where we asked each other's ages, and how long it has been since we all started hanging out at the internet cafe.
of course, i was the eldest. and i got to stay in global for the longest time... and as a joke, i commented that there would come a day when all the rest of them would graduate and leave, and i would still be there, hanging out with the new batch of global boys. And then Mao commented back, and you'ld be 30 by then. and we all laughed.
when i got back to the boarding house, i started thinking... yeah, i am not getting any younger. maybe it's time i started acting my age. stop hanging out in internet cafes and playing dota or cabal all day. but i realized, if i left out that part of me, what more do i have left?
this is all i am now. and every day i drag myself out of bed to get to work, and the only thing i can look forward to is being able to forget everything about this life when i play with my friends.
i'm turning 25, and a lot of the people i know are married now, and some already have children. others are still planning to.
me? i am not.
nyahahahah. who am i kidding? and i can only smile sadly here. i guess you already know how to read between the lines.
hahahahah.... i'm on this journey, you see, to see if happy endings are real. i'm on my way there. at this point, this is the part of my life where every step i take asks for my courage. and it hurts. but i am not losing hope because i know that in this world, nothing can make this any worse.
i hope my happy ending doesn't arrive too late. and too late is defined as the day i have grown old..
