i had always wanted to teach.. but not like this. i am miserable in so many ways,wanting more and more to get out of this resonsibility i think i can no longer take.
if ian gets to pass his medical exam at lexmark, he'll be moving away. soek keeps telling me accenture's coming over on the 2nd of february. he'll probably leave too. and last friday, during lunch, maam bandalan and maam ann were talking bout how doc maja's table is getting emptier each week... maam ann saying his move to US may be coming soon. and he'll probably never come back. sir van and luis are flying to france sometime soon. and word has it sasi will move back to the industry.
i have a stupid exam on signals and systems this thursday, of which i have no idea about (an exam i'll probably fail for sure.)
i have been playing dota every night to keep myself sane.
they'll all be moving out. and i guess deep within my heart, i have that desire too.
i cry at night thinking of ronie. should i just go work at accenture? will me moving there be better for us? what about the compe dept? they'll find better teachers, i know. still, i can't help but feel bad.
i have lots of papers to check and i haven't even started. this job is really getting on my nerves. i get lazier every day, you see.
kulas and i talked bout how when you love a job, it really won't feel like a job at all, that you'll look forward to working every day. that ain't happening to me at all. i guess i'm just too young for all of this.
and i don't know exactly what to do anymore. i really don't know.
