nothing good gets away

life oh life.. it differs in the way it has unfolded for each and everyone of us. and we all have our own stories to tell. but i believe these stories are all one, they differ in ways, yes. but just the same, they tell us about joy and pain... they tell us about endings... and new beginnings.

today, i would like to talk to a friend because today, i can feel how lonely she is. i know she has a lot of friends. and she's probably laughing with them and telling them everything's alright, but i know her heart's broken. she is going through some changes, you see, and it's difficult. i should know... i've been through many of them. some, i thought i'd never survive, but as i got older, i realized, everything passes.

so what difference can i make as i write this? i don't know. i know everyone else had told you about their experiences and gave you advice on how to move on and accept the things you cannot change. so what else do i need to say really? perhaps i'm just doing this to let you know that i'm a friend. and just like many of your friends, i am here for you. i know you've told me you're trying to move on. that's great. but i would say it's okay to not yet move on. :) unless you're ready. don't push it or force yourself too much. it'll only hurt more. it'll only make things worse. i think we both agree that time is our friend. it took me years to understand this. and i'm glad you aren't as stubborn as i was. :) i held on to hope that was no longer there.. hahahaha well, i just don't want you to lose yourself in the process of trying to keep yourself together. i know i probably don't make too much sense. but i really needed to say that. when all this is over, you'll be a better you. a stronger you. a more beautiful you. and whether he regrets it or not, you would not care at all by then. cry it all out, until you'll realize that he really wasn't the best for you.

aahhh now i remember, i thought i'd just chat with you... but then i decided to continue to write this because i read your last message. you said he was perfect for you and you can't imagine someone better coming. well, being an opinionated person, i would like to tell you what i really think. you said he was perfect for you. hmmm...

perfect for you..

perfect for you...

perfect for you?

a person becomes perfect when we love them enough, you know? you loved like it would last. and you gave it your best shot. and that's what made him perfect. every single moment was perfect because you decided it was.. he wasn't that great... your love for him was. and that has made all the difference.

how can he be perfect for you? would the perfect one for you tell you that he doesn't love you as much as he used to? would the perfect one for you leave you behind to begin a life on his own? would the perfect one for you ignore all your tears? would the perfect one for you turn his back on you after you've begged him to stay? maybe you're just remembering all the good stuff. you deserve a lot better. and no one who would do that to you deserves you.

love is infinite. don't be contented to be given scraps of it. find the one meant for you. someone you'll love and who'll love you in return. cherish the pain you feel now, because it'll tell you how great your love really was. hold on when you can. and when you're finally ready, take a deep breath and let that love go. love yourself even more.. dance with the memories and be happy. life is too short :) the one meant for you needs you to be single when he finds you, you know? :) ehehehhe no regrets. everything will make sense when the right time comes. :)

u moved me.Monday, July 19, 2010