let me just tell you why this became one very sad day...
i watched my usual reruns of supernatural. i had nothing much to do after all. and when i finally got to the starting part of season 4, i got bored by the third episode since i've seen it like a lot of times before.. i then turned on my laptop since i was downloading the last few episodes of season 4. ison had not seen it and i really wanted him to watch the season ender.
i thought i'd just leave this on while i slept through the night. i have to go somewhere early tomorrow. and i was hoping the download would be done by the time i get back...
but before that, i checked my emails first. and sir luis just sent me a message on facebook.
and what i read shocked me right through my core.
it was his eulogy for shiela.
and at first i thought, is this some kind of joke?
i read it. and with a million questions in my mind, i opened my facebook account. i looked at a few of my colleagues' walls.
and there it was.
shiela passed away this thursday morning. it was of cardiac arrest. she had uti, and she probably had it long enough that the infection caused her heart to fail.
this is, at the moment, unbelievable. shiela can't pass away. i mean she just can't. she's so young. is she just 22 or 23? she was so vibrant the last time i saw her. she was smiling a lot, like she always did...
i mean, it's shiela. the best working student i know. she was a close friend.. we laughed together while we watched the rest of the department made a fool of themselves during our outings. and anytime i needed help, whether it was for certain papers to be rushed to main, or to the bank, she was always ready and willing. even though i wouldn't ask her for help on photocopying my exams, she offered. and i'd run to her for substitution during exams to watch over my students. they were more afraid of feisty shiela than smiley me.
it broke my heart when she graduated and had to leave. i was happy for her. but it was a sad day to see her go. she was my ally against luis' meanness. and it was just sad to not have her around anymore.
the last time we talked, she called me on the phone to congratulate me about my situation. . she told me she remembered how i used to talk about how i wanted to start my family soon, have a baby soon, and get married soon. and she was very happy to find out it was all working out for me.
she even made me promise i'd come and see her when i had the chance. i told her i usually go to school at nights on thursdays. but i promised one time soon i'd be there when she's there.
and now, i really don't know what to say.
i rarely touched my phone for the past few months now. and i did not even reply the last time
she texted (wala koy load ato jud). and i just don't know what to think now. i just kinda thought it wasn't that much of a big deal. i'd see her soon anyway, she worked at bright academy. that's just a few meters away...
this is a very sad day.
and i just can't get my thoughts straight.. i still cannot believe it happened.
i'm at a loss.
i want to text her. i want to keep my promise and see her at the dept. i want to let her see Castielle. i want to tell her about every detail in my life so far. i want to catch up on what's been happening with her lately.
but i can't now. it's just too late.
i suddenly don't feel sleepy anymore.
my heart is breaking.
