it's been so long since I last wrote anything here.
well, i don't have anything else to do. And I felt the need to write... Deanne and Niki just got married yesterday. It went wonderful... The wedding was great and I feel really happy for my dearie.
Well, she's no longer single, and inevitably, she'll be leaving for Bulgaria anytime, and so I would just like to tell her about all the things I would like to thank her for..
Dearie... thanks a lot. For all the years we've known each other, you never failed to show me just how much you cared. For being there whenever I needed you. For surviving through my madness. And for choosing to stay after knowing me for who I really am. You were the first to endure me this long, you know? And for that, I'd like to say sorry for having to test your patience countless times. Sorry if I ever hurt you and valued my pride more. I'm sorry for all the things I have put you through. I guess you already know me too well to know what I am talking about.
Thank you for never giving in. And for never giving up on me. You don't know how much that means.
When we first met in college, I didn't think I could ever get along with you. But knowing you through those first-times and out-of-the-blue-trips, I found out what a great person you are. We got along well. And it was fun having you to hang out with, hike with, drink with, talk with, and sin with. Hahahaha... And after all these years, I found out how great a friend you really are. It's sad that in this phase of your life, I cannot grow up with you. There are chains that tie me to who I once was, and this is something I cannot let go too soon. I am happy that you still continue to watch me tread this hurtful period one day at a time. But I am even happier to see you grow.
I was listening to all the vows you said during the ceremony and I believe you can do all that. I believe you are destined for the greatest things in the world, and for someone like me, that would only be everlasting love. I hope you find that in Nikki. I do believe he can take good care of you. And I hope he will continue to love you as much, and as long as he had promised to do so. If there ever comes a day (I hope not) you question that, then know that I'll still be there. I'll still be there for you.
Dili nako kapadayon kay 1:30 na and class na nako...
This is my poem for you. It was read by Cameron Diaz for her sister there in the movie In Her Shoes. And this poem, I read for you. :) Although the first part may seem romantic(yucks, dili makaya nga GtoG hahahahahah), I offer the second part to you. :)
I carry your heart
I carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear not fate (for you are my fate,my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
You will shine brighter than everyone else. And it's not just for the beauty that God gave you. It's for who you are deep within. Love yah yan.
"The rainbow will end in the palm of your hand Don't ever let it go. When the sun won't shine anymore, I'll be there."
