i am sad, because of something i can't talk about. yesterday something very bad happened... which made me question what kind of a person i really am.
i have hurt a lot of people for someone i really care about. we both brought ourselves to an existence full of lies just to keep our promises to each other. and yesterday, oh yesterday, everything got worse.
it could be what you're thinking, or it could be not. i do not need to explain myself.
but i cannot take my word back. it's all i have left here.
and yet, so many tears have been shed for us. to run away from this would be the best choice, but we would both hurt a lot. and the wounds may not heal. can i really swallow the thought of hurting everyone we know just for this? my friend can.. but i do not know if i could.
should i take my word back? should i just leave? i don't know where to start...
